Haven’t updated in 7 days?! O_O time flies

Monday, May 14th, 2012 at 1:25 am

I was shocked to see that I haven’t updated this blog in 7 days. It didn’t seem like it at all.

My schedule has been pretty busy.

Wednesday - stayed at work late, til about 10pm-ish?

Thursday - stayed at home in the morning, but took a work call from 10am-12am. Then, went to work and proceeded to work from 1pm...all the way til 5:30am. Yes, 5:30am! Including lunch, it was a 19.5 hour work day!? ZOMG. Slept at 7am...(so was up for 22 hours).

Friday - ...woke up at 2pm..worked til 6pm...then went back to Richmond Hill for a mother’s day dinner, followed by going to my friend’s place for a bbq. I don’t know when I slept but...

Saturday - ...woke up at 5pm :S Got ready and went out to “Board Game night” with my friends from 8pm-12am.

Sunday - Came home from game night at midnight...was supposed to work all night...but got tired and fell asleep at 3am. Woke up at 3:45am and joined a work call from 3:45am - 5:30am. The slept from 5:30am to 7am....and woke up to drive Z to her 10k run. Proceeded to stay awake...on around 2.5 hours of (broken up) sleep...until 12 (noon)...when I finally got home and crashed. Slept til 3:30pm. And then from 4:30pm-7pm again. And then from 11pm-1am....and now I’m blogging before I hit the sack again.

It’s been such a mess on my sleeping this week. It actually makes sense why I haven’t blogged in 7 days...the last 5 days have been super busy. I just haven’t had a chance.

I’ve been thinking of something deep and philosophical. I will definitely post it, once I’ve gathered my thoughts. :) Stay tuned!

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That glass shattering moment...

Monday, May 7th, 2012 at 4:08 pm

...when I was talking to the senior developer we just hired on our team and explained that we do ASP.NET/ASP and use SQL Server.

And he replied with
“Uh, just so you know, I don’t know any JavaScript”.

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And then I realized...that not only did this senior developer not know JavaScript but that he didn’t know there was a difference between ASP.NET and JavaScript.

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That was a hard day. And the days that following, ever realizing this “senior” developer was not at all qualified.

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Thinking too much hurts your brain and gives you wrinkles

Monday, May 7th, 2012 at 2:36 am

When I am racing, my mind and body are working so quickly and so well together, I must be sure not to think, or else I will definitely make a mistake.

- Denny from The Art of Racing in the Rain

Just as quote from the last book I read.

It made me think of all the times you do something mindlessly and/or repetitively that you can do quickly and without mistake...but then, when you realize you’re doing it, you slow down for fear of making a mistake.

Try typing “k”, “l”, “f” repeatedly and you’ll notice you vary speeds as you start to think.
(Sorry, I was trying to think of an example where the above occurs).

Sometimes it’s best to do things without thinking. I find public speaking is better for stuff like this. Thinking too much gives me hesitation and tongue twisting...but simply blurting out thoughts comes out much more naturally...tho I do tend to say stupid things >_<

It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than open your mouth and remove all doubt.

- Lisa Simpson

And then I, like Homer, would reply:

Takes one to know one.



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I’m so unhappy being happy.

Sunday, May 6th, 2012 at 2:10 am

I was cleaning some of my old drafts that were never published.
I cringe to read what some of them say and how some of them were written.

“Was I ever that young, emotional, and stupid?” I ask, despite the posts having been written within the last year or two.

Many of them were rants that I thankfully didn’t post. But it does make me feel like I would cringe reading some of the posts I’ve actually published on here.

I don’t really believe I’m too different a person from a year or two ago. And perhaps I still react the same way given certain emotional stimuli...but I don’t feel that way anymore. I don’t feel like that person that wrote all that stuff. That took all of life’s trivialities and ranted about them. That took daily life and made it bigger than it was. More dramatic.

Yes, there’s definitely drama in my life. I have external drama that keeps me occupied generally...so I haven’t had the need to look within myself and question or argue with myself. Which has caused me to write a lot less.

I’m all drama’d out....right now....and the drama I have, I can’t write about.

I sort of miss it. The passion to write something meaningful or introspective. I’ve had things I wanted to write about lately but they always just...get forgotten. I have little notes on the things I want to write about...but it never really seems worth it. I’ve been walking to work a lot lately...but I’m not really thinking of anything that’s mind blowing. I haven’t figured out anything new...there’s no internal conflict. Am I burnt out? Or have I figured out enough things about myself that it’s really...well, not all that fun anymore.

I know who I am...how I react to things...what bothers me, what doesn’t, and why. I feel like I’ve figured out most of the whys in my life, especially regarding myself...which is really quite upsetting as I live for the whys, the understanding.

I’m happy. I’m out of conflict, drama, and figuring stuff out.
And this life makes me really unhappy.

...that’s so retarded.

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To Do list

Sunday, May 6th, 2012 at 12:58 am

I think I need to add a To Do list.
Something I can frequently reference...cuz although my monthly accomplishment posts are good, I can’t seem to stay on track of what I have to do, long term.

I find that I want to watch A but then get distracted by B and C. Or rewatch D. And never get to A.

Anyways, I think I might make one soon and put it as a section of this site, to keep me organized.

Movies.
Shows.
Books.
Games.

So if I ever don’t know what to do - I just check that out.

I’m finding myself just absolutely drowning in side projects or organization of stuff...

Too much to do. Never enough time.

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